GRRR!

Thank you, Mom. Just because I don't get up at five in the morning to practice doesn't mean I don't love music. I don't even get up at five in the morning to write, and I'd like to see you deny the fact that I love writing. Maybe it just means that I'd, you know, like to get more than six hours of sleep a night, so I can BE AWAKE IN SCHOOL AND DO THE ACADEMICS THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY.

And Goddamnit, if I want to be a band director, then I'll be a fucking band director. I'm good at science, but I don't particularly like it. I definitely don't love it enough to do it the rest of my life. I'm good at English, but that doesn't mean I'm going to become an English major. Mostly because I suck at analyzing stuff. I like my lit the same way I like my boys - everything up front; I don't want to have to look too hard unless I feel like it. That analogy just curled up and died, didn't it?

I'm a good academic, but I have a better chance of actually getting a job as a band director than as, oh, I don't know, any of the other random stuff I'm vaguely interested in. Of course, my mom starts screaming, "You'll never get a job! You'll be unemployed! It's a completely useless degree!" See, Mom, that's why I plan on DOUBLE-MAJORING, and have ALTERNATE CAREER PLANS. Band director - FBI agent - anthropologist.

I love music. I'm scared of graduating from college and NEVER being able to play again, or never being around musicians, or - *shudder* And if I'm a music major - some of the colleges I'm looking at don't have music ed as a major - I have options for other stuff, too. I'll probably never be a performance major, but there's theory/comp and music history, and ethnomusicology (which ties into to anthro, so THERE), and lots of other interesting stuff. Hell, there's even film comp, and I've always wanted to do that. I am never, ever, EVER going into music therapy, though.

Note that I've never planned on being a pro writer or a creative writing major.

*sulks*

Hey, I have a Barnes and Noble gift card I haven't used yet.