new plan

I really can't handle living in a city. Brown and the area around it is fine, but as soon as you get away from the campus -- I'm serious, I can't handle it to an extent that would be funny if it was anyone not actually me. I don't like cities and I've never liked cities and I think at this point I might try to steer away from colleges that are located in cities -- which strikes Boston University and the University of Chicago off the list, right now. Not the UW, even though that's definitely city-located, just because it's a state school and it's one of my backup schools. I think at this point I should definitely start looking at schools that are located more smalltown-wise. I don't need much at all in a town -- for God's sake, I live in Ellensburg and I like it fine. I need a Fred Meyer or the local equivalent thereof and besides that, I should be good. Music shop, bookstore, maybe a coffee/tea shop -- that'd be nice, but I seriously don't need it. Maybe a larger city within easy driving distance, but if I can't handle Providence then it's pretty certain I can't handle Boston or Chicago or New York.

Which is bringing up something else. I can't visit most of the schools I'm planning to apply to before I apply -- Stanford's covered, and I loved it with a fiery, fiery passion, and I can definitely visit the UW -- and Brown's taught me that I really, really need to see the campus and get to feel it before I accept, and now I'm worried that I'm planning to apply to a lot of schools I'd hate if I went there. (No, I'm serious: there's literally no way I can visit. Except for Stanford and the UW, they're all on the East Coast and I can't afford to visit. The only two schools Brown's running visits down to in the next two weekends are Harvard and Connecticut College, which I don't know if I'll be able to go of because of space and availability. There is the college fair, though.) And now I really do have to think about this stuff.

*worries*