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May. 25th, 2013 09:28 pmWell, this just took a turn from awful into horrific: I can't hold a book up because it hurts too much.
I've got a book stand that I use for hardbacks, but most of my fiction collection is paperback. Some of them are beaten up enough that I can break the spine without too much difficulty and lay them down flat, but others are new (and thick) and it's not that easy. Plus I don't always want to be at my desk or at a table when reading. Weirdly, normally I do because otherwise it's a lot of pressure on my wrists; until recently, I very rarely wanted to be lying down on my bed and reading. Which might have something to do with it? Because I suspect there's more pressure on my arms that way than other angles. Normally, with a paperback, I can just hold it in my left hand, but a lot of British paperbacks are less conveniently sized for that than American paperbacks. (I'm wondering if twenty years of holding books in my left hand almost every day is one of the reasons why my left is so much worse off than my right hand.)
I'm also wondering if switching to a laptop stand, which I did in February, is actually aggravating this. Because my wrist problems started in February, but when they started they felt completely different than they did when they recurred badly in April, and aside from wearing the braces about, oh, 60-70% of the time, the laptop stand is the only major change that I made. And previously it didn't hurt to type; now, depending, it does. (I'm not sure my typing posture's as good as it could be, either, but...I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing, and there's a limited amount of stuff I can try.)
I don't know, I hate everything. I'm tired and sick and pissed off and in low-level pain and frustrated. I literally don't know how to hold a book so that most of the pressure isn't on my left wrist. (Especially since I just started this book, so it's not balanced the way it would be in the middle or closer to the end.) I can't knit, I'm too upset to concentrate enough to write (about anything other than all the terrible health issues that are on my mind at any given point in time), and now I'm not sure that I can read because it hurts to hold a book up. (Also I really want to read this book, because reading the first book in the trilogy yesterday is probably what fucked up my wrist more than usual anyway and omg, book.)
On the other hand (HA HA HA god damn it) I haven't taken as many painkillers today as I've bee taking over the past week, so that probably doesn't help much either.
I've got a book stand that I use for hardbacks, but most of my fiction collection is paperback. Some of them are beaten up enough that I can break the spine without too much difficulty and lay them down flat, but others are new (and thick) and it's not that easy. Plus I don't always want to be at my desk or at a table when reading. Weirdly, normally I do because otherwise it's a lot of pressure on my wrists; until recently, I very rarely wanted to be lying down on my bed and reading. Which might have something to do with it? Because I suspect there's more pressure on my arms that way than other angles. Normally, with a paperback, I can just hold it in my left hand, but a lot of British paperbacks are less conveniently sized for that than American paperbacks. (I'm wondering if twenty years of holding books in my left hand almost every day is one of the reasons why my left is so much worse off than my right hand.)
I'm also wondering if switching to a laptop stand, which I did in February, is actually aggravating this. Because my wrist problems started in February, but when they started they felt completely different than they did when they recurred badly in April, and aside from wearing the braces about, oh, 60-70% of the time, the laptop stand is the only major change that I made. And previously it didn't hurt to type; now, depending, it does. (I'm not sure my typing posture's as good as it could be, either, but...I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing, and there's a limited amount of stuff I can try.)
I don't know, I hate everything. I'm tired and sick and pissed off and in low-level pain and frustrated. I literally don't know how to hold a book so that most of the pressure isn't on my left wrist. (Especially since I just started this book, so it's not balanced the way it would be in the middle or closer to the end.) I can't knit, I'm too upset to concentrate enough to write (about anything other than all the terrible health issues that are on my mind at any given point in time), and now I'm not sure that I can read because it hurts to hold a book up. (Also I really want to read this book, because reading the first book in the trilogy yesterday is probably what fucked up my wrist more than usual anyway and omg, book.)
On the other hand (HA HA HA god damn it) I haven't taken as many painkillers today as I've bee taking over the past week, so that probably doesn't help much either.