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Feb. 4th, 2020 01:56 pmSo, the heat got fixed on Thursday -- I didn't have functioning heat for almost a week. Fortunately it was during a relatively ~normal temperature span in Atlanta (high 30s at night, high 40s/low 50s during the day), and between two space heaters the house was more or less fine. Not ideal, but I always run cold anyway so it was just throwing on more knitwear and baking more frequently. I mean, it sucked, obviously, and I kind of hit a point where I was just convinced that it was never going to be fixed and I was just going to have to live like that now. The poor repairman was at my house again Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday before he got it fixed. (After also having come the previous Tuesday and that Saturday.)
I've still got my landlord's space heaters so I need to give them back to him -- I could only actually use one of the borrowed space heaters + the one I already have without overloading a circuit, and I didn't feel like experimenting more to figure out which outlets were on which circuits, though you'd think I'd know that from when the electrician was here last summer upgrading all the electrical. At least the HVAC repairman actually tells me things and doesn't make any weird racist or sexist remarks, unlike the electrician. I am veryI had to call him), etc. And that's just...exhausting. On top of teaching, which means lesson prep and lecture-writing and trying to figure out what's appropriate teaching wear, and even though we're going into week 4 there are still things I haven't yet done for the class (students should all be fine, it's just backend stuff that's going to bite me later) that need to get done.
I'm just tired, and stressed, and I miss my mother, and none of my local friends are currently talking to me, which isn't doing much for either my self-esteem or my socialization. My neighbors on the other side of the duplex are moving in a week and a half, which depresses me because I like them a lot; my landlord is apparently going to turn that side of the house into an office, which makes me nervous because IDK if it's going to affect my side (I've got another year and a half on my lease). And the weather is depressing and I'm just tired, and also now I seem to be down with a cold as well: delightful. (I can't take cold medicine, though I'm also having some concern that it's not a cold, just stress and weather/temperature changes hitting me, but I'm just not sure. Or that because it started just after the heat got fixed that it's related to that somehow.) And I desperately need to clean the house which, well -- every time I start to do something else breaks so there's no point, why bother sweeping when something is just going to break and require repairmen to tromp through the house again sometime soon? And then there's shame because of that. And the fact that I still have all of my comps books out, and there's just...books everywhere. And I can only take them back to the university a few at a time due to the lack of car. And I have messages I need to reply to but I'm just really tired, and I need to do lesson prep for tomorrow. I'm just tired.
I've still got my landlord's space heaters so I need to give them back to him -- I could only actually use one of the borrowed space heaters + the one I already have without overloading a circuit, and I didn't feel like experimenting more to figure out which outlets were on which circuits, though you'd think I'd know that from when the electrician was here last summer upgrading all the electrical. At least the HVAC repairman actually tells me things and doesn't make any weird racist or sexist remarks, unlike the electrician. I am veryI had to call him), etc. And that's just...exhausting. On top of teaching, which means lesson prep and lecture-writing and trying to figure out what's appropriate teaching wear, and even though we're going into week 4 there are still things I haven't yet done for the class (students should all be fine, it's just backend stuff that's going to bite me later) that need to get done.
I'm just tired, and stressed, and I miss my mother, and none of my local friends are currently talking to me, which isn't doing much for either my self-esteem or my socialization. My neighbors on the other side of the duplex are moving in a week and a half, which depresses me because I like them a lot; my landlord is apparently going to turn that side of the house into an office, which makes me nervous because IDK if it's going to affect my side (I've got another year and a half on my lease). And the weather is depressing and I'm just tired, and also now I seem to be down with a cold as well: delightful. (I can't take cold medicine, though I'm also having some concern that it's not a cold, just stress and weather/temperature changes hitting me, but I'm just not sure. Or that because it started just after the heat got fixed that it's related to that somehow.) And I desperately need to clean the house which, well -- every time I start to do something else breaks so there's no point, why bother sweeping when something is just going to break and require repairmen to tromp through the house again sometime soon? And then there's shame because of that. And the fact that I still have all of my comps books out, and there's just...books everywhere. And I can only take them back to the university a few at a time due to the lack of car. And I have messages I need to reply to but I'm just really tired, and I need to do lesson prep for tomorrow. I'm just tired.