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My level of anxiety has been so bad for the past six months (and probably before, but something about 2021 tipped it over) that I can literally feel it knocking years off my life. Usually my terrible memory kicks in eventually and I forget what I was so nervous about it, but that hasn't happened this year and it's getting to the point where it's really, really hard to deal with on the near non-functional level. Which is bad because I do need to be functional.

(It's not even pandemic anxiety, it's grad school + career anxiety, though I'm sure the pandemic hasn't, like, helped.)