sorry, is my stress showing?

So, my novel is taking over my life. I'm eating, sleeping, and breathing Spaceforce. All my reading is research. My free time should be homework or, you know, getting the last pieces of my college applications in, but instead it's...um, well, it should be noveling, but it's mostly me staring at the computer/television holding a pencil and the shards of my broken brain.

I keep going, "Wait! Do these colleges require mid-year reports? Should I just send them anyway? Oh my God, why can't your website be clearer? And why am I watching Big Brother 9: 'Til Death Do We Part? Where have all my braincells gone? God, my teeth hurt. I can't believe I have to get the upper set of braces in April. God damn it, not only am I not doing orchestra this quarter because I'm missing both concerts to go to New Orleans to visit Tulane, there's also a chance I might miss the State basketball tournament. God fucking damn it, now the Embry-Riddle accepted student preview day is on the same day as the CBC jazz band competition, which I cannot miss. Oh my God, what the hell am I doing with my novel? Hey, look, a book about American nurses caught in Bataan during WWII. That looks kind of relevant. We're studying my least favorite subject in AP Lit to see if I'll literally have a rage blackout and kill either myself or the book, aren't we? Because there is no such thing as literary fiction and commercial fiction; it's a false divide amd it does not exist."

Sorry, is my stress showing?

That said, I have read the following books strictly for novel-related research purposes: one (1) book on the Civil War (Stealing the General: The Great Locomotive Chase and the First Medal of Honor), one (1) book on the Iraq War (From Baghdad, With Love: A Marine, the War, and a Dog Named Lava), and one (1) book on the Navy SEALs (Lone Survivor: The Eyewitness Account of Operation Redwing and the Lost Heroes of SEAL Team 10).

The following books are home for me from the library and on my to-read list:
House to House: An Epic Memoir of War
In The Company of Heroes
We Band of Angels: The Untold Story of American Nurses Trapped on Bataan by the Japanese
Power, Faith, and Fantasy: America in the Middle East: 1776 to the Present

Plus a bunch more that I went through the library and pinpointed to check out as soon as I finished reading the ones I have. Yes, because there's nothing better than doing a year's worth of research at the last minute. I feel this is a valuable life lesson for college.

Homework? What homework? I have to graduate high school, you know, I don't have time for homework.

I need an icon that says "High school has killed my GPA." Or "Senior Project has killed my GPA." Or "High school destroyed my dreams." I don't know. Clearly I'm not thinking straight or something.

movie quotes meme!

Snagged from stellaluna_ and scarletts_awry. For God's sake, tell me there's someone watching my journal. *haunted eyes*

1. Pick 10 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Italicize and bold when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie.
5. Looking them up (and then posting your answers) is, of course, cheating.

1. You take one more step, traitor, and I'll chew you to splinters!

2. When you pull on that jersey, the name on the front is a hell of a lot more important than the one on the back. -- Miracle, mentalhygiene

3. Well, everybody else we've bumped into has died. Why not you?

4. All men are drawn to the sea, perilous though it may be.

5. I wish I'd never learned Latin.

6. You love me? I thought we had decided not to fall in love. That we'd be forced to live a lie and that it would destroy our lives. - Star Wars Episode II: Attack of the Clones, jedi_em

7. You will unite or you will fall. Each race is bound to this fate, this one doom. - The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring, ghostrunner7, mentalhygiene, limmenel, jedi_em

8. The reason we're gathered here on our God-given, much-needed day of rest is that we have a Polish hostage. - SWAT, scarletts_awry

9. If you think I'm going to Delhi with you, or anyplace else after all the trouble you've gotten me into, think again, buster! I'm going home to Missouri where they never feed you snakes before ripping your heart out and lowering you into hot pits! This is NOT my idea of a swell time! - Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom, mentalhygiene

10. Thank you NASA! Thank You NASA! THANK YOU NASA!

I ran out of favorite movies; so I went straight to movies I rewatch. I have favorite TV series, not favorite movies.