i'm not flocking this because this is my journal and i believe in telling the truth

If I have one more person tell me that I'm missing the entire point of the books -- there is someone going through my meta now and I'm getting the comment notifications and they are pissing me off.

I am not Christian. I did not come at the books from a Christian POV, or even from a religious POV at all. No, the books are not meticulously plotted out. No, the movies are not the books. Yes, I have explicitly stated EVERYWHERE that I write movieverse and not bookverse, so don't challenge my characterization on bookverse grounds. (Leeway on Eustace, Jill, and Tirian, obviously, but what she's getting at is mostly my Susan portrayal.)

Yes. Perhaps LWW was written as a standalone book. It doesn't matter how it was written. You know why? Because it's not read as a standalone book. It doesn't matter what the authorial intent is; it matters what the reader reads.

And no. No, I didn't read the religious themes in the book; I wasn't raised to be religious, I'm not sure I was even raised with a very strong concept of religion until about the time I hit middle school. And I read the books a long time before then, and even then, my religious underpinnings are not Judeo-Christian by any means.

Here's the truth: I did not realize that Lewis's point in the books was religious until this year. I knew there were religious themes. To be honest, I more or less skimmed over them. I couldn't -- and I still can't -- reconcile what happens in the books with what people seem inclined to tell me over and over again is Lewis's point; it makes no logical sense to me and never has. And you know what? It probably never will. No matter how I contort my brain.

Yes. The books are inconsistent. You know what the fun of fic and meta is? Trying to make those inconsistencies consistent and give a reason for them. A SENSIBLE, LOGICAL reason.

This is what I believe: "There are nine and sixty ways of constructing tribal lays, / And every single one of them is right!"

No one comes at the story from the same angle. No one.

And once the book is in print, it doesn't matter what the author wrote. It matters what's on the page. And that's true for anything and everything: books, television, movies, music, dance, artwork, speeches, crossing the street, anything.

(no subject)

I love you guys.

I just want to put that out there.

drink up, dreamers, you're running dry

Oh, yes, listening to my LB AU playlist is going to help my current issues. (For emphasis: not my Dust playlist. This one has...slighly more angst. And by slightly, I mean BARRELS.)

It is a really, really bad sign when I have songs on this playlist that I also had, a year or so ago, on my SW AU playlist. (Which also ended in tragedy, which is one of the reasons I never finished the story.)

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days.

i have never written a character that flirts with as many people as peter pevensie

...I see Jack Sparrow just arrived in Narnia.

Dust 11: in which Peter flirts with men in prison and ends up in chains. Although those two events aren't related.

Yeah. Yeah, my High King of Narnia flirts with pirates, mercenaries, and noblemen with criminal connections.

You'd think he would have moved on from the pirate thing, though. I happen to know that at least two of the men he slept with during the Golden Age were pirates. (On the bright side, though, neither Osumare Seaworth nor Eskil Sigurdsson tried to kill him. So perhaps the pirates are the safer option.)

I haven't worked on Dust all day because I've been in a weird headspace because of last night. (Which, you know, for timing, came right in the middle of Peter's brain starting to work.) But I have read the entire of Tom Brown's Schooldays and The Rape of the Lock, done my laundry, knitted almost half of my Noble Cowl, finished reading Carnage and Culture, came up with names for two of the main characters in the colonial fantasy novel, and watched episodes of Numb3rs, Bones, Friday Night Lights, Flashpoint, and CSI:NY.

But now I've written another 500 words of Dust 11, which has me mostly convinced me that Peter has finally got his brain working, and also that my character Finch may be Jack Sparrow in disguise. (Hey, remember when I wrote PotC? Now there's a flashback for you.)