worst. student. ever.

Well, now that I've spent an engaging hour playing solitaire instead of starting my chapter, perhaps I should GET ON THAT.

Well. To be fair. I also watched about ten minutes of BSG. That scene at the beginning of Resurrection Ship Part II, where Helo and Chief are getting beat up on the Pegasus? Helo's expression: "Hey, frak you, I survived frakking post-apocalyptic Caprica, I spent three months alone on a devastated world with my rogue Cylon girlfriend getting chased by Cylons, I've blown away Centurions with bigger balls than you got and I didn't need a battlestar to do it, you frakking human punks. SO GIVE IT TO ME HARDER, BOYS. I'VE BEEN BEAT UP BY CENTURIONS, YOU THINK YOU CAN BEAT THAT?"

Helo is a very calm badass.

pairing meme answers!

I have been reminded that I should write up the answers for the pairings meme. So!

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Hey, y'all got 16/20! I am not as obscure as I thought I might be. A lot of them were canon, four of them were from the same fandom, most of them were het, and three were incestuous. One was twincestuous! And one was so old-school it's 3000 years old, heh.

I fail at life.

*facepalm* I feel like such a writing failure. I'm going to get this paper done -- I've got about 3.5 pages single-spaced right now, and I just need to get it to five so that it'll be ten double-spaced -- but it's such a disaster it's not even funny, because I can't figure out (a) what I want to say or (b) how to say it. Also, I've got that one paragraph that ends in WHY IS THIS RELEVANT BEDLAM GOOD GODS. (Only with my surname instead of Bedlam.) So that'll have to come out before I send it to my committee with abject apologies.

Of course it doesn't help that I'll write a page, or a page and a half, and then take an hour and a half break to watch BSG clips and play Solitaire. I have got to stop trying to write papers the night before they're due; it usually works out but it's clearly not doing so this time. I have notes, I have stuff I want to write about, I'm just not sure how to do it, which is, I've got to tell you, the worst freaking feeling.

I am, however, reconsidering my feelings towards doing English lit for grad. I like early modern English lit. I'm good at early modern English lit. I've done a lot of it in undergrad. A classics and history background is really good for early modern English lit.

Ugh. I mean, yay for BSG breaks, but ugh. (I am however thinking about going through BSG and making a list of every time Helo gets a gun pointed at him by Colonials, though. I can think of three or four off the top my head. Home Part I (by Zarek's men), Pegasus, Resurrection Ship Part II (both by Pegasus marines), Downloaded (by Galactica marines), Rapture (by Galactica marines) Faith (by Anders), The Oath (by mutineers). I think there might be a couple other cases in S2. Lay Down Your Burdens Part II, maybe? I'd have to check. Resistance only if you count the resistance on Caprica as Colonials, which you could.)

I am not a happy camper. Okay, I'm going to take my trash out, look over my notes, write a paragraph or so, take a shower, write another page, and go to bed. Well, I was stupid calm for the first four and a half days of Thanksgiving break, I'm making up for it now by returning to my prior state of high-strung procrastination + paranoia + STRESS OMG.