you know...
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...I should make a list of "Things I Have Learned From Fandom That Are Going Into My Novel." The fact that it would include "The most depressing ending ever is the one where one half of a pairing dies and the other half goes back to Earth and teaches college" says so much about SGA fandom as a whole. No, really.
limmenel, you're suddenly in a tizzy wondering which of my babies is dying, aren't you?
See, and I'm a little surprised about this, but writing the I-Search paper actually did help me figure a few things out about my novel -- important things. Like the sociopolitical underpinnings, which I was aware of, but was hoping to just, you know, avoid. But if I actually look at them as important to the theme -- and holy God, are they ever -- then I have figured out the goddamn plot which hid for me for the past year. And it makes me alternately depressed and gleeful, because most depressing yet most perfect ending ever. I mean, it has to end this way. It just has to. (
limmenel, you're going to kill me a lot.)
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See, and I'm a little surprised about this, but writing the I-Search paper actually did help me figure a few things out about my novel -- important things. Like the sociopolitical underpinnings, which I was aware of, but was hoping to just, you know, avoid. But if I actually look at them as important to the theme -- and holy God, are they ever -- then I have figured out the goddamn plot which hid for me for the past year. And it makes me alternately depressed and gleeful, because most depressing yet most perfect ending ever. I mean, it has to end this way. It just has to. (
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Date: 2008-02-12 04:01 am (UTC)Omg, how am I supposed to sleep tonight?
(also, I read the fic. OVER AND OVER AGAIN. And I have a long, incoherent review that's half-typed, and basically boils down to OMFG GLEE GLEE GLEE KEYSMASH and eventually I'll get around to finishing it without having to go re-read the fic for the millionth time.)
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Date: 2008-02-12 04:06 am (UTC)(WHEE!)
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Date: 2008-02-13 12:58 am (UTC)I love them so much. I just have no idea how I'm going to explain to the senior project advisory board, not to mention my parents (including my very conservative father, who claims he's not that conservative but he's so totally lying), that my main characters are gay. *sigh*
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Date: 2008-02-13 01:43 am (UTC)The best part is that I've talked to liberals about it and I've talked to conservatives about it, and both come away thinking I'm supporting their "side." Except for the Ethan/Cam thing. That I try and keep quiet, because I don't really think it's that big of a deal in the bigger picture. It's -- it's them, you know? And Ethan could be a chick, or Cam could be a chick, or it could have been Ethan/Shelton like it was originally supposed to be (hilariously, at one point I was considering having Cam be having an affair with Berin Sunstark, so you see how things change), but that's not important. What's going on is bigger than them, but having a pairing puts it at a personal level. They just happen to both be guys.
(Sorry, I'm just kind of exploding at you because I haven't had a chance to talk about this with anybody and it gets all pent up. And I've practically been breathing Spaceforce these past few weeks.)
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