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[bedlamsbard]

Well, that was therapeutic: I just cried all over my cell phone to my mom. I don't miss my hometown (much), I don't miss my friends, I don't miss my house or my room, I miss my motherfucking high school. I don't want to transfer to Central, I want to go back to EHS.

I hope my cell phone's waterproof, because I'm not kidding about the crying here. And I was going to write, but I'm so not in the mood. I'll just sit here and watch TV or something.

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[limmenel.livejournal.com]

♥

[scarletts-awry.livejournal.com]

*hug* You miss what's familiar, and that's totally understandable. I think new things are scary too, even when they're good things. The good news is that, sooner or later, the new stuff stops being new (and scarey) and starts being familiar. We really are adaptable, even when we may not want to be.

*hugs again*

[almostinstinct.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[ineptshieldmaid.livejournal.com]

*offers a large metaphorical blanket*

I guess that's the downside to actually liking high school, huh?

[bedlamsbard.livejournal.com]

There is that, yeah. I liked high school, man. College has its points, but -- I really did like high school.

Maybe I should have gone to a smaller college in a smaller town. *sigh* I wonder if that would have helped.

[ineptshieldmaid.livejournal.com]

Heh. I HATED high school. Never wanted to go back there.
But I still spent the first year and a bit feeling like I was in the wrong leg of the trousers of time, and I should have been at Newcastle Uni, hanging out with the uniting church student group there... Everyone expected me to have a breakdown and come home, because that's what happened to the LAST person from that church group to take off to Sydney for uni. I stuck it out, but I felt like I was in the wrong place for years.

And now I've somehow deconverted, and will always wonder if things would've turned out differently if I'd stayed in Newcastle. :s

Thing is, though, if you'd gone to a smaller college, it would still have been a change, and "at least you're not at a big college" wouldn't mean anything if you'd never been to one. So you'd still be struggling and it would still feel impossible. 'Cos even small colleges aren't the same as high school.

[bedlamsbard.livejournal.com]

I'm the only person I know who really, really liked high school. And I'm not at a big school now -- Tulane's about medium size -- but New Orleans is a city, and I'm from a small town. I'm a small town country girl who's only ever known small town living, and this isn't it. And I'm not going back to Ellensburg, I don't want to go to Central, and it's not the school, it's not the people, it's just -- I don't know.

I'm sorry, thinking about this just makes me cry again, and I don't even know why.

[ineptshieldmaid.livejournal.com]

Oh, lovely. :(

*wraps you up in a hug* I'm sorry. It's tough. It WILL get easier, I'm sure of it, but that doesn't really help you right now...

[lassiterfics.livejournal.com]

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