I am so bad at social situations. God damn it. I suck at this shit, and I hate having to start over from scratch so I'm not even trying, and I know I'm not even trying.
I just -- I'm in the damn group, it's one of two things I managed to make sure I got myself involved in, I just don't...talk to anybody. Jesus Christ, I suck at this.
Oh, god, I remember my first year. For the first month it was sort of a social free-for-all, no rules, no propriety, you just went up to anyone who looked likely and said "Hi, I'm Sgrio," and hoped for the best. I went from group to group to group, met people piecemeal (my first friend, Mary, I met while we were hiking Hadrian's wall. A girl and her father asked me to take photographs of them. Two weeks later I noticed the girl next to me in the lab was uploading some familiar pictures...). She introduced me to A. I went to a jazz night and met T and T2 and Vicky, and I met Steve... I don't remember where I met Steve.
Anyways, I went into the cafeteria, and there they were- every last person I'd met that week (each on their own), all sitting at the same table. It was like something out of a wacky indie movie, or maybe we were all just on the same wavelength.
*headdesk* I'm just so bad at it, and what's more, I was here a week early for a "get to know New Orleans" program -- seventeen girls that I saw everyday, and of them, I still only talk to one on a regular basis, mostly because we have really similar interests. I'm kicking myself for having not done marching band.
Hey, at least at this point, I'm just of the opinion I can try it all again next year when I'm a sophomore, and I'll make friends next year should not be the phrase of the day. It doesn't help that I'm in one of those incredibly bitter post-high school moods where I just don't see the point of having to do this all again, because, hey, after four years I'll probably never see these people again, so hey! Why should I give a damn now? (Yes, I know that's a horrible headspace to be in. Just to make things clear, I do actually have friends on campus.)
OH, THAT HAPPENED TO ME TOO. I had to go visit my new current school @ the end of last year for a day, and it was SO VERY AWKWARD to sit around with my tour guide's friends. >____
I know it sounds like I'm desperate -- hell, if I was desperate, I'd rush (Tulane rushes at the start of second semester), but I'm not desperate. I'm just frustrated by my complete inability to be something even resembling a normal human being.
Heh. Peta is bitching out Reepicheep for being an idiot and starting the war early.
For me it's the band fraternity, which is just getting started this year, and which I joined because I was like, "Hey! I'll make friends!" The only thing is that almost everyone in KKPsi is in marching band, and thus has known each other forever, and I'm not in the marching band, I'm in the teetiny concert band, and I'm actually pretty certain I don't want to be a part of this, but I've already shelled out a hundred bucks.
He's also being imprisoned. Peta's really pissed. (Well, the guy did disobey her orders, start the war early, tip off Miraz, get Edmund hurt, and get a dozen Narnians killed. He's getting off easy.)
Oooh. How do you manage to Machiavelli up a seduction?
Well, it's a social organization, and at most schools there are fraternity and sorority houses, where members of the fraternity or sorority can live off-campus (or sometimes they're on-campus) (Tulane only has frat houses, since there's an old New Orleans law that prevents more than a certain number of women living together. Because then it would be a brothel. Trivia!), and they're called Greek organizations since most of them take their names from Greek letters -- the band fraternity (which is honorary, meaning its members generally have something in common and support a specific cause/purpose/something like that) is Kappa Kappa Psi. And to join one, you have to rush, and if you see college movies, that's generally what you see; it's the crap freshmen have to do in order to be a part of it. Most schools rush at the beginning of the school year, in August (or whenever); Tulane rushes at the beginning of second semester.
Or something like that, anyway; I don't know. I may learn more when Greek Week starts and people I know start rushing.
Well, good luck with your band fraternity! I'd dunno...what do you talk about in band? See if you can talk about that to other people and get to know them better that way. :D
Well, KKPsi's not about band, per se; it's just made up of band members, and I don't know any of them, and I'm not even in the same band as most of them; I'm in the concert band, they're in the marching band.
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Date: 2008-11-03 03:00 am (UTC)Anyways, I went into the cafeteria, and there they were- every last person I'd met that week (each on their own), all sitting at the same table. It was like something out of a wacky indie movie, or maybe we were all just on the same wavelength.
So give it time. It'll come. *hugs*
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Date: 2008-11-03 03:10 am (UTC)Hey, at least at this point, I'm just of the opinion I can try it all again next year when I'm a sophomore, and I'll make friends next year should not be the phrase of the day. It doesn't help that I'm in one of those incredibly bitter post-high school moods where I just don't see the point of having to do this all again, because, hey, after four years I'll probably never see these people again, so hey! Why should I give a damn now? (Yes, I know that's a horrible headspace to be in. Just to make things clear, I do actually have friends on campus.)
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Date: 2008-11-03 03:19 am (UTC)newcurrent school @ the end of last year for a day, and it was SO VERY AWKWARD to sit around with my tour guide's friends. >____(no subject)
Date: 2008-11-03 03:48 am (UTC)I'm writing that Pevencest fic now. *headdesk* Peter/Susan/Edmund/Lucy, all at once.
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Date: 2008-11-03 04:03 am (UTC)Heh. Peta is bitching out Reepicheep for being an idiot and starting the war early.
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Date: 2008-11-03 04:09 am (UTC)Poor Reepicheep.
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Date: 2008-11-03 04:36 am (UTC)Edmund's seducing Peter. He's being very Machiavellian about it. *headtilt*
...yeah, that's about right.
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Date: 2008-11-03 04:52 am (UTC)Oooh. How do you manage to Machiavelli up a seduction?
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Date: 2008-11-03 11:43 pm (UTC)Well, it's a social organization, and at most schools there are fraternity and sorority houses, where members of the fraternity or sorority can live off-campus (or sometimes they're on-campus) (Tulane only has frat houses, since there's an old New Orleans law that prevents more than a certain number of women living together. Because then it would be a brothel. Trivia!), and they're called Greek organizations since most of them take their names from Greek letters -- the band fraternity (which is honorary, meaning its members generally have something in common and support a specific cause/purpose/something like that) is Kappa Kappa Psi. And to join one, you have to rush, and if you see college movies, that's generally what you see; it's the crap freshmen have to do in order to be a part of it. Most schools rush at the beginning of the school year, in August (or whenever); Tulane rushes at the beginning of second semester.
Or something like that, anyway; I don't know. I may learn more when Greek Week starts and people I know start rushing.
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Date: 2008-11-04 12:03 am (UTC)Well, good luck with your band fraternity! I'd dunno...what do you talk about in band? See if you can talk about that to other people and get to know them better that way. :D
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