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[bedlamsbard]

I have been feeling weird and sad and just generally quietly depressed all day, after a burst of calm while I was in Bruff eating breakfast and reading (the almost sure way to calm me down is for me to eat and read. I don't know, it's weird, it works). Yesterday was another failed attempt at trying to get off-campus with one of the roommates whom I am actually friends with (keyword: another), so today, since it's beautiful and warm and just generally lovely I took myself out to lunch at La Madeleine -- the one fucking thing I wanted for my birthday was to go out to dinner and it never happened, so I finally did something about it. (I actually want to go to a different restaurant down in the Quarter, but La Mad's in walking distance.) Enjoyed chicken pesto pasta and started in on this book I'm reading for my honors thesis. I guess at least in this case throwing money at the problem actually did help for an hour or so, although I got depressed again as soon as I got back on campus. I have to do some reading for my tutorial in two giant books I don't want to carry off campus, so I guess I'm stuck here.

It's really very nice out, though. 55 F, warm, sunny -- shirtsleeve weather.