hi, my issues, let me show them to you.
May. 20th, 2011 12:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bedlamsbardNo wonder I had trouble controlling my dolly during move-out a couple weeks ago -- my boxes alone weighed thirty pounds more than I did + the dolly itself + New Orleans sidewalks.
I am below 110 pounds as of today, hovering between 105 and 110. I think it's actually a reasonably healthy weight based on my body type and family history; my mother and my female cousins on the Japanese side were all about the same weight and size at my age, although I'm a bit taller than they are (that definitely comes from the Scandinavian side, although I'm still not that tall -- about 5'3"). I have mixed feelings about being this size (given the amount of invective that's sometimes leveled at small women -- "anorexic-looking", "bulimic-looking", "eat a sandwich", "Asian women all look underage and anorexic", "Asian women aren't real women", etc.), but there's really not anything I can do about it: genes are genes. And, you know, I eat! I don't watch my weight, I don't diet (I drink full-fat milk and eat full-fat yoghurt, I eat sweets (although mostly just dark chocolate and homemade baked goods at this point), I eat meat, I eat carbs -- mmm, I love carbs), I don't obsessively work out (the closest I get is that I do crunches and stretches, and just recently I'm getting back into doing push-ups, at night, and also I walk a lot, though more when I'm at school than when I'm at home), so it really does mostly come down to genes. Only I see a lot of time, "Real women don't wear size 1s," or "No real woman actually weighs under 130 lbs," or that sort of thing, and then I get defensive and start worrying if I'm unhealthy, and no, it really is just genes.
But, you know. There's a reason I tend to characterize myself as "scrawny" rather than "skinny." One of them is more socially acceptable to say.
I am below 110 pounds as of today, hovering between 105 and 110. I think it's actually a reasonably healthy weight based on my body type and family history; my mother and my female cousins on the Japanese side were all about the same weight and size at my age, although I'm a bit taller than they are (that definitely comes from the Scandinavian side, although I'm still not that tall -- about 5'3"). I have mixed feelings about being this size (given the amount of invective that's sometimes leveled at small women -- "anorexic-looking", "bulimic-looking", "eat a sandwich", "Asian women all look underage and anorexic", "Asian women aren't real women", etc.), but there's really not anything I can do about it: genes are genes. And, you know, I eat! I don't watch my weight, I don't diet (I drink full-fat milk and eat full-fat yoghurt, I eat sweets (although mostly just dark chocolate and homemade baked goods at this point), I eat meat, I eat carbs -- mmm, I love carbs), I don't obsessively work out (the closest I get is that I do crunches and stretches, and just recently I'm getting back into doing push-ups, at night, and also I walk a lot, though more when I'm at school than when I'm at home), so it really does mostly come down to genes. Only I see a lot of time, "Real women don't wear size 1s," or "No real woman actually weighs under 130 lbs," or that sort of thing, and then I get defensive and start worrying if I'm unhealthy, and no, it really is just genes.
But, you know. There's a reason I tend to characterize myself as "scrawny" rather than "skinny." One of them is more socially acceptable to say.