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bedlamsbardThe thing about ever trying to start a chapter of Dust is that I freeze up and either (a) can't write or (b) hate everything I do write. I never get blank page syndrome as badly with anything else as I do with Dust. Occasionally I get past this by handwriting the first bit of the chapter (usually the first two handwritten pages, back and front of one sheet of loose-leaf lined paper, in pencil -- I used to be able to do it in notebooks and in pen, but not anymore), but sometimes I end up going, "I am WASTING a sheet of paper and it's not even going to be the final chapter ARGH HATE HATE HATE," or, if I try using a sheet of paper I've already written on, "IT WILL RUIN IT. ARGH HATE HATE HATE."
(Also, my prose is slightly different handwritten v. typed, which I'm not really that happy about. I know why, of course: handwritten is more deliberate; I have to think about every word, I shape each letter individually, I can't just bang it out like I do when I'm typing. It takes longer to write less.)
Anyway. I have a suspicion I might have worked out my problem with Dust 25, and it's not with the chapter itself, but with the structure of Part II. I already wrote 50K of build-up, let's do something else -- let's get into the meat of it. So we'll see if that works. Eventually. If I can bring myself up to it.
(Also, my prose is slightly different handwritten v. typed, which I'm not really that happy about. I know why, of course: handwritten is more deliberate; I have to think about every word, I shape each letter individually, I can't just bang it out like I do when I'm typing. It takes longer to write less.)
Anyway. I have a suspicion I might have worked out my problem with Dust 25, and it's not with the chapter itself, but with the structure of Part II. I already wrote 50K of build-up, let's do something else -- let's get into the meat of it. So we'll see if that works. Eventually. If I can bring myself up to it.