I also really want a cupcake
Aug. 7th, 2011 12:39 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bedlamsbardSo I somehow managed to lose around or just under ten pounds when I was in England. I am not very happy about this; I don't exactly have a lot of weight to lose. I'm now just below 105, which is not really a number I'm that comfortable with; I was freaked out enough that I hit below 115 when I came home in May. (My bathroom scale is in increments of five.)
I am guessing the reason I lost weight is because I remember being hungry all the time when I was in England -- it's not that I wasn't eating, because I was, I had three meals a day, main course and side dishes and dessert; the portions were smaller than I'm used to, thanks for that, Corpus Christi. So I'm guessing that's probably it. I mean, yes, I was walking around, that probably had something to do with it, it is probably a combination of those two factors, but I am still pretty unhappy with it, because a 104 or so is not really a number to aim for. (I mean, I'm pretty sure I don't look skeletal or anything, we've gone over how it's pretty run of the mill for the women from the Japanese side of the family, and yet. Societal expectation of skinny women being anorexic and/or bulimic, being unhealthy, being overly influenced by the media, etc., and so on.) I only noticed when a dress that had more or less fit perfectly before was suddenly loose on me a week ago and then I started getting dismayed. A case of, "Oh, no, not again."
Twitter has finally moved me (and presumably everyone else) from old Twitter to new Twitter. I do not like New Twitter. I dislike change. I also dislike GoogleDocs, which likes to screw with my computer. (I suspect I should probably update my browser, but see again: I hate change.)
I have a cold and I hate it.
Yesterday I went into town with my mother and experienced wonderful small town life once again, where I was interrogated on my life goals and told that I should pursue them now before I meet a nice young man, get pregnant, and never set foot in a university again. Because having a family means you can't have a life. And because every girl will meet a nice young man and get pregnant. /sarcasm I resist the urge to say, "Well, I don't think that will be a problem, because I'm pretty sure I prefer women," because I just don't want to deal with that right now.
And now I am hungry again, so I think I'll go deal with that.
I am guessing the reason I lost weight is because I remember being hungry all the time when I was in England -- it's not that I wasn't eating, because I was, I had three meals a day, main course and side dishes and dessert; the portions were smaller than I'm used to, thanks for that, Corpus Christi. So I'm guessing that's probably it. I mean, yes, I was walking around, that probably had something to do with it, it is probably a combination of those two factors, but I am still pretty unhappy with it, because a 104 or so is not really a number to aim for. (I mean, I'm pretty sure I don't look skeletal or anything, we've gone over how it's pretty run of the mill for the women from the Japanese side of the family, and yet. Societal expectation of skinny women being anorexic and/or bulimic, being unhealthy, being overly influenced by the media, etc., and so on.) I only noticed when a dress that had more or less fit perfectly before was suddenly loose on me a week ago and then I started getting dismayed. A case of, "Oh, no, not again."
Twitter has finally moved me (and presumably everyone else) from old Twitter to new Twitter. I do not like New Twitter. I dislike change. I also dislike GoogleDocs, which likes to screw with my computer. (I suspect I should probably update my browser, but see again: I hate change.)
I have a cold and I hate it.
Yesterday I went into town with my mother and experienced wonderful small town life once again, where I was interrogated on my life goals and told that I should pursue them now before I meet a nice young man, get pregnant, and never set foot in a university again. Because having a family means you can't have a life. And because every girl will meet a nice young man and get pregnant. /sarcasm I resist the urge to say, "Well, I don't think that will be a problem, because I'm pretty sure I prefer women," because I just don't want to deal with that right now.
And now I am hungry again, so I think I'll go deal with that.