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[bedlamsbard]

Dude, do any of you other writer-types ever get that feeling that the world isn't...real, I guess? You know what I mean? You spend so much time in your own head that the rest of the world feels like it's -- I don't know, under your thumb, and then it's not. I mean, you know, theoretically, that you have next to nothing to do with anything, but you're used to being able to control things, more or less that it's just -- oh, there's a happy ending. Or something. You spend so much more time in your own head, with your characters and your worlds, that they're just more real to you than other people.

You know? Or am I just having a Moment? 'Cause I could totally just be having a Moment.

And no, nothing happened, I'm just having a Moment.

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[mentalhygiene.livejournal.com]

We understand completely.

or I think I do. I often feel like I am dreaming, in a manner of speaking. Or that I have somehow walked into a story. It doesn't feel real in the sense that it doesn't feel sensory ... exactly. It doesn't feel kinesthetic and I don't want to say dream, exactly. But. Eh.

[bedlamsbard.livejournal.com]

Yes. Exactly. Not the dream world, because you're usually interacting when you're dreaming, but just...looking in from the outside. Like watching tv. Like there's a glass wall between you and the rest of the world.

Or even...just, you know, your body's interacting, is joking around and stuff, but your mind's looking on and categorizing. Or that stereotypical writer thing: you've broken up with your boyfriend, but you're glad because you always wanted to analyze this so you know how it feels, or looking at people you've characterized and going, "Oh, so that's how he'd react in this situation." *shakes head* I am a nutcase.

[mentalhygiene.livejournal.com]

Aw, man, that's not *crazy*. That's... I do that all the time. Well, not the boyfriend thing. But all *kinds* of things like omg, I need to know what this feels like. Like I smoked a cigarette just so I could describe it for a character.

[bedlamsbard.livejournal.com]

Well, the bad part is when you base a character off someone you barely know, and whenever you get within eyesight of them you're analyzing everything they do and say and occasionally going, "Ha! I am so good." Or when you can't remember their name, just the name of the character you based off them.

Not that I did that at Tolo or anything...yeah, you can imagine my reaction when I learned I was going to be going in Alan's group. "Sweet! I can figure out how he reacts in such and such situation and if he really is anything at all like Alan Auberon! Dude, he is! That is such an Alan thing to do!" *cough*