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[bedlamsbard]

Okay, I have to make arrangements for shipping my stuff home as soon as possible, since I'm leaving in less than two weeks now. (My flight's on the thirteenth.) I'm notoriously bad at eyeballing how much stuff I actually have, but I keep thinking that if it wasn't for all the damn books I'd be able to fit all my stuff in two suitcases and two carry-ons. This is probably not true, but dear gods, I have a lot of books, even after I went through and winnowed out the ones I'm okay with passing off to Oxfam. That's at least fifty, by the way. Some of them are cookbooks. I can probably pack at least twenty into my actual luggage. I could probably go ahead and get rid of the two pairs of boots where the heel has worn out and I haven't bothered to get them replaced. (One pair I've got an identical set at home. I just hate throwing away shoes. Alternately I could take them to a cobbler here and see if they're fixable.)

Ugh, I hate this. My dissertation is due on the tenth and I'm a week behind and I keep having panic attacks. I kept thinking I was going to be on top of this shit for once, but noooooooooo. Plus I'm probably going to have to throw out food, which I also hate, god, I hate everything.

I could probably seriously cut down on the amount of packing needed if I threw out all the clothes with holes in them, though. Because that's most of my shirts. (Classy, Bed, so classy.)

ETA: Oh great! Now I can be stressed, panicking, writing my dissertation, packing, AND on my period all at the same time! *bursts into tears* (Well, at least that explains why my emotions have been up and down all week.)

Comments

[sporky_rat]

*cheers you on!*

[bedlamsbard]

Thanks, hon.

[killing_rose]

See about passing the food off to someone in the area? Recruit someone to come over and help you pack?

Good luck.

[bedlamsbard]

I don't have any friends in Leicester, or any closer than London. (Which explains why I'm such a wreck most of the time.)

Thanks, hon.

[aella_irene]

If you can't make it up next weekend, I could come down and help?

[bedlamsbard]

I'm actually probably not going to do any packing until after I turn in my dissertation (the 10th), but if you came over, there's a high likelihood I'd try to pass off books and food to you (TAKE THE COUS COUS, JUST TAKE IT...uh, I mean), so, uh, take that as you will?

[rthstewart]

Hang in there. Try to focus on the diss. The rest will take care of itself one way or another. It might be messy and might be at the last minute but the diss is way more important!

[bedlamsbard]

Yeah, that's what I'm trying to do. I'm not as worried about the diss as I probably should be, and I've got a few days between when I turn in my diss and when I have to move out, so hopefully that's enough of a cushion.

[harpers_child]

are you aware of unfuck your habitat and the 20/10 method? it works for all sorts of things. UFYH has a really good explanation.

[bedlamsbard]

I'm aware of the theory, yeah. My work habits seem to be along the lines of 15-40 minutes of solid work (depending on time of day, how my wrists feel, if I'm hungry, etc.) and then a few hours off. Which is sort of the opposite of what it should be, but as long as I get stuff done I'm not much bothered.

[heliopausa]

That sounds very sane, not to bother about the packing (or the food either, or anything) until after the dissertation is done. I really hope it's all coming together now, and feeling calmer.

[bedlamsbard]

I'm hoping I can actually manage that! I have moments where I'm calm and moments where I'm in complete panic, so hopefully they balance each other out. I've got a few days between when I finish my dissertation and when I move out, so that's something.