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Oct. 24th, 2016 05:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bedlamsbard1. I literally had an election-related stress dream last night -- I was trying to vote, but there was a test I had to take that I hadn't known about before, and I was driving around town trying to figure out where this test was being held so that I could vote, and if I couldn't vote then I alone would be solely responsible for the, you know, oncoming apocalypse and the fall of American democracy etc. and I was just going, "But I didn't know there was a test!" Ironically my county doesn't even have polls because it's mail-in only and I already have my ballot, I just haven't filled it out and sent it in yet.
Gods, I'm so ready for this election cycle to be over.
2. I've been having jaw pain recently, which I've had before on and off, so that adds to my level of stress. It's probably stress-induced, though other possible reasons include: the weather, the fact that I've been spending mornings lying in bed with my jaw pressed against my pillow at a weird angle (but about at the point where the pain is coming from), an actual medical problem, or aliens. Probably stress, though.
3. I need to actually start working on my personal statements (statements of purpose, whatever they end up being called) for my grad school apps, but I haven't done so yet.
4. Sometimes fandom really tires me. I love fandom, it's shaped my life, but sometimes...sometimes it really tires me. I feel like I've been censoring myself a lot more in the past year than I did at any point in the fourteen years previous -- I think partially because unlike LJ/DW fandom, stuff can get reblogged around without context, whereas at least with journal fandom people have to come to your actual journal to read something. And the other factor is that Star Wars Rebels fandom skews both young and new(ish) to fandom in general -- it's not really a fandom that attracts a lot of fandom ~oldtimers, so there are both real and fannish generation gaps that are on occasion really evident. (I'm honestly still not over the time someone called me "fandom mom" and I almost had a meltdown, because I was 24! I'm not exactly that much of a fannish old here! I mean, now I'm 26, but I'm still not a fannish oldtimer, particularly. Except I've been around since, eh, 2001/2, so I kind of am. Fannish generation gaps are weird.)
5. I can never tell if I'm actually a complete disaster or if I'm pretty together as a human being. Bit of both, I think.
Gods, I'm so ready for this election cycle to be over.
2. I've been having jaw pain recently, which I've had before on and off, so that adds to my level of stress. It's probably stress-induced, though other possible reasons include: the weather, the fact that I've been spending mornings lying in bed with my jaw pressed against my pillow at a weird angle (but about at the point where the pain is coming from), an actual medical problem, or aliens. Probably stress, though.
3. I need to actually start working on my personal statements (statements of purpose, whatever they end up being called) for my grad school apps, but I haven't done so yet.
4. Sometimes fandom really tires me. I love fandom, it's shaped my life, but sometimes...sometimes it really tires me. I feel like I've been censoring myself a lot more in the past year than I did at any point in the fourteen years previous -- I think partially because unlike LJ/DW fandom, stuff can get reblogged around without context, whereas at least with journal fandom people have to come to your actual journal to read something. And the other factor is that Star Wars Rebels fandom skews both young and new(ish) to fandom in general -- it's not really a fandom that attracts a lot of fandom ~oldtimers, so there are both real and fannish generation gaps that are on occasion really evident. (I'm honestly still not over the time someone called me "fandom mom" and I almost had a meltdown, because I was 24! I'm not exactly that much of a fannish old here! I mean, now I'm 26, but I'm still not a fannish oldtimer, particularly. Except I've been around since, eh, 2001/2, so I kind of am. Fannish generation gaps are weird.)
5. I can never tell if I'm actually a complete disaster or if I'm pretty together as a human being. Bit of both, I think.
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Date: 2016-10-25 08:44 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2016-10-25 09:50 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2016-10-26 09:09 pm (UTC)I love fandom, it's shaped my life, but sometimes...sometimes it really tires me.
This. I love fandom, but sometimes it's so exhausting.
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Date: 2016-10-27 04:52 am (UTC)*nods* Fandom can be SO MUCH sometimes, and there's always something exhausting going on -- whether it's a pan-fandom thing or a fandom specific thing or a canon thing or a personal thing or just...anything. Always. And stepping away isn't always an option.
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Date: 2016-10-27 07:44 pm (UTC)