this was going to be a five things post but I could only think of one thing

[bedlamsbard]

I've spent all day feeling like I'm on the edge of having a screaming breakdown, for various reasons: the thing I'm only talking about under lock, my grad school applications, my fic, the weather, 8tracks' new listening limit, POLITICS, things I want to buy but am hesitating on, the season, and finally, the fact that Tumblr somehow did a thing which makes it nigh-on unusable, which is the thing that feels as though it's finally sent me over the edge.

I am...basically incapable of dealing whenever something goes slightly wrong -- I mean, I can, obviously, I have not reached the ripe old age of 27-in-exactly-a-month by not being able to deal with things that are moderately off-center, but they'll throw me really, really badly, to the extent that it consumes every thought I have and makes it incredibly difficult to do anything else, even if it's completely unrelated. I feel like I've spent the past six months in emotional freefall. July, August, and September were really, really bad, October got a little better, and then November happened (Election Day happened) and everything since then, no matter how big or how small, has felt like complete and utter unmitigated disaster. I'm basically out of cope, so every little thing sends me over the edge. And there are a lot of little things.

I don't know how my life can feel like it's spiraling so totally out of control when I barely leave the house. I have control issues at the best of times, and this is...definitely not the best of times.

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[dhampyresa]

*hugs*