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1. Oh good, the new school year doesn't start for another three months and I'm already in "I am a failure compared to other people I know" mode. (I'm not planning to move until early/mid August -- the term starts late August -- and several people I know who are also starting grad school moved to their new cities this past week. I am reminding myself there's no reason to be there that far in advance when I know I won't be doing anything productive, and I'll just be paying rent and making my own food two months early.)

2. I do, I think, have a place in Atlanta, with a friend of a friend who was looking for a new roommate. We've been e-mailing for a few months and had a video chat last week, and she seems nice and this should work out. I do keep worrying about furniture and stuff, but she said I could send things there so I might end up buying furniture online and shipping it there in advance of my arrival.

2a. I still have not made, like, concrete plans on how to get my belongings from point A to point B. I should...do that...eventually...I guess.

3. I feel terrible about the fact that my personal crisis and breakup coincided with, you know, the American political crisis, and they definitely fed off each other in ways that I don't really want to examine too closely -- I mean, my reactions to both did, I guess, obviously my personal life was not affecting American politics. But it definitely affected the way I reacted to it, and the emotional and mental energy I had (have) to deal with it. I don't know, there's not really a point to this.

4. I've been fighting a lot with my father lately, and it's exhausting and demeaning and awful. And it's not even fighting, per se, or maybe it is -- like, the other day he came up to my room because we're having an internet problem and he wanted to see how my connection is, then stayed in my room looking around at my art and figurine displays after I asked him to please get out of my room. "No, I want to see your things." "This is making me uncomfortable." (At this point he's walking around my room; also, I feel like I should add that I have a fair number of Star Wars pinups in my room, so like, my father looking at sexy ladies? V. uncomfortable.) "Why? I want to look at your little things. Obviously you want them to be looked or you wouldn't have put them up, don't be so sensitive." "They're here because I want to look at them and this is making me uncomfortable." "Don't be so sensitive or get out of my house." Etc.

And then yesterday I made a comment about having already done my exercise for the day and my dad said, "What, did you walk downstairs and then up again?" and I, well, overreacted and said, "This is why I don't do anything when you or mom are at home, because you always make fun of me!" "No one is making fun of you, don't be so sensitive." "You literally just did!" "I just made a comment, don't be so sensitive." And then I went upstairs and cried and tried to figure out if I really had overreacted.

So that's been happening a lot lately.

5. I am moving to Atlanta in August, so I'm trying to decide if I want to go to Dragon*Con or not. I've never go to a con besides Star Wars Celebration, and I'm not sue if I actually know anyone who's already going or not, so... *hands* Also, I can't figure out from the website if I can go for just one day or if I have to pay for the whole weekend? I am probably missing something obvious.

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Date: 2017-06-20 05:45 am (UTC)
umadoshi: (kittens - Claudia - ear tufts)
From: [personal profile] umadoshi
In case a comment from a stranger is any help at all: that's awful behavior from your dad, and it doesn't sound like you overreacted in the slightest. :(

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Date: 2017-06-20 01:22 pm (UTC)
thornsilver: (Default)
From: [personal profile] thornsilver
This "you are to sensitive" stuff is bullshit. If you tell him something is bothering you and he ignores it, it is on him, not on you.

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Date: 2017-06-20 04:17 pm (UTC)
alexseanchai: Blue and purple lightning (Default)
From: [personal profile] alexseanchai
Is the black woman on Thursday overreacting?

(spoilers: no)

Thus it follows that you are not overreacting.

Many many sympathy.

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Date: 2017-06-20 09:24 pm (UTC)
dhampyresa: (Default)
From: [personal profile] dhampyresa
You're not being sensitive, your dad is being a jerk.

i am being so very southern right now.

Date: 2017-06-28 11:18 pm (UTC)
sporky_rat: Atia from Rome looking very pleasant and kind. Text: Die screaming you pigspawn trollop (pigspawn!)
From: [personal profile] sporky_rat
As I believe I have said before,
Bless your dad's heart.
He is just so precious.
I'm gonna pray for him.

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