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bedlamsbardSo, a list of things I am stressed about right now, because writing them out usually gets them out of my head and occasionally people have advice on what to do about them.
1. the DirecTV situation. I canceled my debit card last week after realizing I had been autocharged since September for an account I didn't think I had -- when I got my internet hooked up, something went sideways and they initially signed me up for (a) a lower speed internet connection and (b) DirecTV, and while the internet eventually got sorted out, at the time they said there was no DirecTV subscription attached to my account, which was fine because I don't have a television. I did continue to get e-mails from DirecTV, but I just deleted them because I had been told by AT&T (which owns DirecTV) that there was no DirecTV attached to my account, so I assumed it was just a weird e-mail error. When I finally got hold of my bank statements last week and realized I was being charged for it, I tried to call them and couldn't get through. The e-mail attached to the DirecTV account (which is the same e-mail I use for my AT&T account) won't let me log in to DirecTV and the "reset password" bit on that account redirects to an e-mail and a phone number that are not mine. My last AT&T customer service interaction was pretty awful (as in, it resulted in the internet disaster; the internet technicians who came to my house were helpful, but the customer service agents on the phone were NOT), so I'm terrified to try and contact them again. Today I got the "your payment did not go through" e-mail (since I canceled the card), and I'm just...not sure what I should do? Can I just ignore it? Is it going to affect my AT&T account? (Which I pay for completely separately and not on autopay, the only thing I have on autopay are Audible and Patreon, never my bills.) Is it going to affect my credit score? WHAT DO WHAT DO? ETA: Got through to AT&T's online chat and they canceled it. I am now supremely freaked out because HOW, but at least that's done with. HOPEFULLY.
2. The weather. Atlanta isn't supposed to get snow, but we are supposed to get below-freezing temperatures, which I don't mind because I'm from central Washington, but I'm terrified of the pipes freezing even if I drip them.
3. Why would I ever go back to working on Ouroboros when I still regularly get cruel comments on Wake and Gambit? The idea of working on Watchtower fills me with a knot of pure terror and mental calculation on which planned plot points and characters are going to get the most hate. Today's set of comments was a genre I'm now pretty immune to ("Padme is a cheating slut"), but every time I see a comment notification for Wake or Gambit my first instinct is fear.
4. The government. That impediment in the White House. The government shutdown.
5. Got a summer job offer but need to officially put my name in the lecturer pool, but that university's jobs website is down. (Or rather, its security certificate is expired so my browser won't let me go to it. I assume they will fix this sooner rather than later but I'm still freaking out.)
6. Related: need to officially petition my department to let me take an outside job this summer (since we're still on stipend even during the summer), which means I have to write a formal letter.
7. I think I'm good money-wise even not taking on another roommate, especially with stipends going up this fall, but what if I fall and die or something.
8. I really miss my mother and I still really do not like Atlanta.
9. Star Wars. Constant stress.
10. School. 'nough said.
11. Cosplay. I need to actually like...learn how to sew. Before Celebration. Which is in April. And I need to paint my lekku.
12. I bought an Instant Pot and I haven't taken it out of the box yet.
13. My electric kettle was acting up last month and I panicked and bought a new one but the old one is now fine so I don't know if I should return the new expensive one or not? It is inarguably a better brand, but it also has not come out of the box and the other one is fine. OR IS IT?
14. I'm not sure if the yogurt I bought last month (or November?) is still good since it's been opened but I don't want to just throw it out. But I don't want to eat it either.
15. My garbage bin is falling apart.
16. My landlord still hasn't fixed the back porch light and I don't want to text him again and remind him, but it's been out since August. Also, "check filter" keeps blinking on the thermostat.
17. What if the power goes out. We're supposed to get wind gusts, which always has the possibility of knocking out power lines, and while my first ex-housemate lived here for five years and never got a power outage of more than a few hours, the first month I lived here a hurricane knocked out power for three days.
18. I have Etsy orders that have never been shipped but I hate having to bother people and go "hello, I never received this" or "please send me thing that I sent you money for."
19. I have so much art that's not up on walls but frames are hard to get, especially when you don't have a car and have to hand carry them back from the store, which is doable for most things but not for poster frames.
20. My ears having been ringing since Tuesday, I have a doctor's appointment for next Tuesday (the day after tomorrow), but what if they never stop ringing, what if I just have to live with tinnitus for the rest of my life? (Given that I have a recurring earwax problem, it's probably related and I'm almost definitely going to get my ears watergunned again.)
21. Food is hard.
22. I probably need more human interaction.
23. What if this year SWCC decides not to have the tattoo parlor?
24. Department is hiring and it's all in subfields I don't care about so I've mostly been ignoring the candidate lunches and job talks but I really...should not do that...okay, if I go to ONE of each next week.
25. The depression and anxiety and executive dysfunction worry me but not enough to go to Emory's counseling services about it, despite the fact that I hit rock bottom last year.
26. I want a teapot but I own so many teapots it seems silly to buy another one but all my teapots are at home and I am not at home.
27. My favorite mobile game (which I play literally every day is ending in March.
28. What if my tendinitis comes back?
29. I need to sort out my clothes but I don't actually have space to keep them all in.
30. I still need to get my Dooney & Bourke bag fixed (busted zipper) and also it smells like old sweat and I don't know how to make it not do that.
31. Too many backpacks, not sure if Febreezing my favorite one to the point of death has gotten rid of the old sweat smell or not, and don't want to wash it until it's warm enough I'm sure it will dry.
32. I'm still really scared of my ex, and I know we're both going to be at SWCC, and I'm terrified I'm going to ruin another Celebration by being sad and scared the entire time and lose current friendships over it, because SWCO was a disaster for me and I still can't look at pictures from it without flinching.
33. Probably not doing enough work as a graduate student given that I heard another grad student's schedule and I don't know how she SLEEPS.
34. Still haven't done any of my ethics sessions, required by my university, but they're all boring and meant for STEM people and I hate being on campus.
35. Need to either handwash or dry clean my wool sweaters but scared. (I've got one of those home dry cleaning kits.)
36. Tumblr.
37. Need to get new glasses but don't know when I'll be home again.
38. I HATE ATLANTA.
39. did I mention I had to cancel my debit card. and my bank can't send the new one here because this isn't my address on record (for various reasons) so it's going to be sent to my mom and she'll send it to me.
40. My SWCC badges are getting shipped home instead of here, which should be fine because my mother can just send it to me but what if something goes wrong.
41. I have a skirt I got custom-made that needs to be tailored because it's too big at the waist, which means I have to go to a tailor. I also have a leather jacket that's needed to be fixed since I lived in New Orleans.
42. On the Hera Syndulla cosplay group on FB, but won't post because I know my ex is also on it and I'm afraid of her.
43. I need to clear out all my ex-housemate's kitchen stuff but effort.
44. My mother sent me an Omaha Steaks box for my birthday but what if the power goes out and all that meat goes bad and also I'm not great at cooking steak.
45. I have a spending problem but I'm trying to save for SWCC.
46. My current WIP.
47. what if my Latin is not actually as good as I think it is?
48. I want to color my hair again but my hair doesn't like dye, and I'm wary of getting it done professionally again because most hairdressers don't know how to deal with Asian hair. Plus, expensive.
49. I need to organize my pins because they're all just piled up on my dresser.
50. Just...scared. Always scared.
ETA: 51. Finally changed the batteries on my kitchen scale and apparently it's just dead. And now I can't get the battery out. (It's those little flat ones.) Further ETA: Fixed the scale (battery was in upside down), but now I'm bleeding.
1. the DirecTV situation. I canceled my debit card last week after realizing I had been autocharged since September for an account I didn't think I had -- when I got my internet hooked up, something went sideways and they initially signed me up for (a) a lower speed internet connection and (b) DirecTV, and while the internet eventually got sorted out, at the time they said there was no DirecTV subscription attached to my account, which was fine because I don't have a television. I did continue to get e-mails from DirecTV, but I just deleted them because I had been told by AT&T (which owns DirecTV) that there was no DirecTV attached to my account, so I assumed it was just a weird e-mail error. When I finally got hold of my bank statements last week and realized I was being charged for it, I tried to call them and couldn't get through. The e-mail attached to the DirecTV account (which is the same e-mail I use for my AT&T account) won't let me log in to DirecTV and the "reset password" bit on that account redirects to an e-mail and a phone number that are not mine. My last AT&T customer service interaction was pretty awful (as in, it resulted in the internet disaster; the internet technicians who came to my house were helpful, but the customer service agents on the phone were NOT), so I'm terrified to try and contact them again. Today I got the "your payment did not go through" e-mail (since I canceled the card), and I'm just...not sure what I should do? Can I just ignore it? Is it going to affect my AT&T account? (Which I pay for completely separately and not on autopay, the only thing I have on autopay are Audible and Patreon, never my bills.) Is it going to affect my credit score? WHAT DO WHAT DO? ETA: Got through to AT&T's online chat and they canceled it. I am now supremely freaked out because HOW, but at least that's done with. HOPEFULLY.
2. The weather. Atlanta isn't supposed to get snow, but we are supposed to get below-freezing temperatures, which I don't mind because I'm from central Washington, but I'm terrified of the pipes freezing even if I drip them.
3. Why would I ever go back to working on Ouroboros when I still regularly get cruel comments on Wake and Gambit? The idea of working on Watchtower fills me with a knot of pure terror and mental calculation on which planned plot points and characters are going to get the most hate. Today's set of comments was a genre I'm now pretty immune to ("Padme is a cheating slut"), but every time I see a comment notification for Wake or Gambit my first instinct is fear.
4. The government. That impediment in the White House. The government shutdown.
5. Got a summer job offer but need to officially put my name in the lecturer pool, but that university's jobs website is down. (Or rather, its security certificate is expired so my browser won't let me go to it. I assume they will fix this sooner rather than later but I'm still freaking out.)
6. Related: need to officially petition my department to let me take an outside job this summer (since we're still on stipend even during the summer), which means I have to write a formal letter.
7. I think I'm good money-wise even not taking on another roommate, especially with stipends going up this fall, but what if I fall and die or something.
8. I really miss my mother and I still really do not like Atlanta.
9. Star Wars. Constant stress.
10. School. 'nough said.
11. Cosplay. I need to actually like...learn how to sew. Before Celebration. Which is in April. And I need to paint my lekku.
12. I bought an Instant Pot and I haven't taken it out of the box yet.
13. My electric kettle was acting up last month and I panicked and bought a new one but the old one is now fine so I don't know if I should return the new expensive one or not? It is inarguably a better brand, but it also has not come out of the box and the other one is fine. OR IS IT?
14. I'm not sure if the yogurt I bought last month (or November?) is still good since it's been opened but I don't want to just throw it out. But I don't want to eat it either.
15. My garbage bin is falling apart.
16. My landlord still hasn't fixed the back porch light and I don't want to text him again and remind him, but it's been out since August. Also, "check filter" keeps blinking on the thermostat.
17. What if the power goes out. We're supposed to get wind gusts, which always has the possibility of knocking out power lines, and while my first ex-housemate lived here for five years and never got a power outage of more than a few hours, the first month I lived here a hurricane knocked out power for three days.
18. I have Etsy orders that have never been shipped but I hate having to bother people and go "hello, I never received this" or "please send me thing that I sent you money for."
19. I have so much art that's not up on walls but frames are hard to get, especially when you don't have a car and have to hand carry them back from the store, which is doable for most things but not for poster frames.
20. My ears having been ringing since Tuesday, I have a doctor's appointment for next Tuesday (the day after tomorrow), but what if they never stop ringing, what if I just have to live with tinnitus for the rest of my life? (Given that I have a recurring earwax problem, it's probably related and I'm almost definitely going to get my ears watergunned again.)
21. Food is hard.
22. I probably need more human interaction.
23. What if this year SWCC decides not to have the tattoo parlor?
24. Department is hiring and it's all in subfields I don't care about so I've mostly been ignoring the candidate lunches and job talks but I really...should not do that...okay, if I go to ONE of each next week.
25. The depression and anxiety and executive dysfunction worry me but not enough to go to Emory's counseling services about it, despite the fact that I hit rock bottom last year.
26. I want a teapot but I own so many teapots it seems silly to buy another one but all my teapots are at home and I am not at home.
27. My favorite mobile game (which I play literally every day is ending in March.
28. What if my tendinitis comes back?
29. I need to sort out my clothes but I don't actually have space to keep them all in.
30. I still need to get my Dooney & Bourke bag fixed (busted zipper) and also it smells like old sweat and I don't know how to make it not do that.
31. Too many backpacks, not sure if Febreezing my favorite one to the point of death has gotten rid of the old sweat smell or not, and don't want to wash it until it's warm enough I'm sure it will dry.
32. I'm still really scared of my ex, and I know we're both going to be at SWCC, and I'm terrified I'm going to ruin another Celebration by being sad and scared the entire time and lose current friendships over it, because SWCO was a disaster for me and I still can't look at pictures from it without flinching.
33. Probably not doing enough work as a graduate student given that I heard another grad student's schedule and I don't know how she SLEEPS.
34. Still haven't done any of my ethics sessions, required by my university, but they're all boring and meant for STEM people and I hate being on campus.
35. Need to either handwash or dry clean my wool sweaters but scared. (I've got one of those home dry cleaning kits.)
36. Tumblr.
37. Need to get new glasses but don't know when I'll be home again.
38. I HATE ATLANTA.
39. did I mention I had to cancel my debit card. and my bank can't send the new one here because this isn't my address on record (for various reasons) so it's going to be sent to my mom and she'll send it to me.
40. My SWCC badges are getting shipped home instead of here, which should be fine because my mother can just send it to me but what if something goes wrong.
41. I have a skirt I got custom-made that needs to be tailored because it's too big at the waist, which means I have to go to a tailor. I also have a leather jacket that's needed to be fixed since I lived in New Orleans.
42. On the Hera Syndulla cosplay group on FB, but won't post because I know my ex is also on it and I'm afraid of her.
43. I need to clear out all my ex-housemate's kitchen stuff but effort.
44. My mother sent me an Omaha Steaks box for my birthday but what if the power goes out and all that meat goes bad and also I'm not great at cooking steak.
45. I have a spending problem but I'm trying to save for SWCC.
46. My current WIP.
47. what if my Latin is not actually as good as I think it is?
48. I want to color my hair again but my hair doesn't like dye, and I'm wary of getting it done professionally again because most hairdressers don't know how to deal with Asian hair. Plus, expensive.
49. I need to organize my pins because they're all just piled up on my dresser.
50. Just...scared. Always scared.
ETA: 51. Finally changed the batteries on my kitchen scale and apparently it's just dead. And now I can't get the battery out. (It's those little flat ones.) Further ETA: Fixed the scale (battery was in upside down), but now I'm bleeding.
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Date: 2019-01-21 05:33 am (UTC)MOMS NOTICE ALL.