yes. apparently I am *that girl*.

Last night I was awakened from the drift of sooner-or-later sleep by the terrible thought, "What if the world ends and I have no toothpaste?"

So yeah. Sometime today I will be going out and buying a fresh tube of toothpaste, because I still have toothpaste left, but what if the world ends?

(Although yes. I did see that episode of BSG where Starbuck offers the last tube of toothpaste in the galaxy as a prize to whoever finds a habitable planet.)

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1. I cannot call home without one parent or the other or both asking me if I've applied to graduate school yet. No, Dad! Not since yesterday! I know, I should really get on that: how does one write a personal statement, anyway?

2. My freaking GRE scores have not arrived yet. UGH. I just want to know if my scores freaking qualify me for some of the U.S. schools I am thinking of. Whose due dates are December 1, by the way.

3. At least I'm better off that one of my roommates, who hasn't even taken the GRE yet, but her due dates are in January.

4. The good news is that the UK schools I'm looking at have due dates sometime next year. The bad news is that my mother keeps reminding me that I have to apply in the U.S. too, in case Something Goes Wrong, but I've barely looked at any U.S. schools. Whose due dates are December 1, by the way.

5. The first chapter of my honors thesis is due in two weeks and I have not written one word. Unlike Chicago, who's already finished her first chapter. Also, I haven't talked to my advisor in a month and I haven't looked at my primary texts in...longer than a month. (I WILL BE DOING THAT TODAY THANK YOU VERY MUCH. All I know about my first chapter is that...it's on Virgil. And the ekphrasis.)

6. Basically, I suck at academia.

7. Also this month: one paper (Chaucer, have not yet begun, have not yet chosen topic, 7-10 pages, due the day after my thesis), Latin test (whatever, I'm good at Latin, thank the gods), and a horrible suspicion of a Greek test (SCREW YOU GREEK).

8. I was a significantly better student last semester when I had to hide from my roommates, since I kept fleeing my apartment to study in the library or the LBC or the dining hall. This semester I just hang out in my room and watch BSG and half-ass my way through homework.

9. In related news, my panic attacks started coming back today. OH SO MUCH FUN. I suspect they're related to OH SHIT I NEED TO WRITE MY THESIS and OH SHIT I NEED TO APPLY TO GRAD SCHOOL and OH SHIT I NEED TO READ 260 PAGES ON ISLAMIC SPAIN and OH SHIT I NEED TO DO MY LATIN AND GREEK HOMEWORK and OH SHIT I NEED TO APPLY FOR AN INTERNSHIP, which was all that was going through my head while I was back from Rite Aid, having purchased toothpaste, and my breathing started getting a little shaky and stopped up. Gee, I sound emotionally stable, don't I? I have also been ripping my lips to all hell, which is as attractive as...a thing which is really unattractive.

10. Today at the grocery store I bought: Greek yogurt (whole fat, plain, Fage brand), a mango, active dry yeast, and Kettle Baked salt & vinegar potato chips. I am not entirely certain that the mango is ripe. Also, I am pissed that I cannot buy my preferred brand of yogurt in larger quantities in whole fat, although I could if I was buying no or low. *hiss* It is surprisingly difficult to find salt & vinegar potato chips in New Orleans, by the way, especially if you have a preferred brand, which I do.